I really really really want...

I watched Oprah last week. About this woman who took 4 months break to go to Rome, Italy to study "pleasure". She said she basically did nothing during the break. Except for the fact that she was indulging herself with good Italian food. Read : Yummy Pizza, Pasta, etc, etc. And i suspected, Italian men. Read : erm... yummy? :p I didnt really watch the whole show coz i was flipping through other channels as well. CSI kot. Whatever. The point is, she gave some tips that got stuck in my head. It basically goes something like this. Do whatever that makes u happy. If it’s not going to harm other creature then do it. It’s like if eating a whole piece of a sinfully delicious choc cake or a cheese cake or visiting J.CO every alternate day makes u happy then by all means, belasah je. The only thing that’s going to suffer is that tummy of yours, or for some people the cheeks first or boobs (I don’t mind this, really!) or bums (erm, I do mind this coz honestly I think mine is big enough). Ok focus. She said, always begin ur day with :-

Tip No. 1
Find ur happy moment and remember it for the rest of the day. Over & over. Whenever u feel down. Could be anything, any moment.

Tip No. 2
Ask yourself first thing in the morning, what do u really really really want? The really part have to be repeated 3 times. She said so, ok. Then, repeat the question everyday. The whole idea is if u keep on asking yourself the Q and keep on answering it with the same answers, u’ll know what u want & naturally will work towards it. In Islam, it’s doa concept. Nothing new huh?

Tip No. 3
Before going to bed, remember ur happy thought tadi, smile and oh, life is not that bad after all :D The doze off –lah. Eh, bacalah doa tidur dulu. Or at least basuh muka, berus gigi, basuh kaki, baca bismillah, al-fatihah, 3-Qul, ayat Qursi then mengucap. Kot kot la tak bangun dah. Errr… betul apa!!! Ok, ok. What? I cant give that advise meh? Don’t judge me. If u do, then u’d probably don’t know me.

Ok, back to that woman. She probably said lots of other things on how to be happy in life..blah..blah..blah. But that’s all I can remember. So, I’m gonna take her advise and start with my first list. My 14th January 2008 happy thoughts list. I hate the 14th. I’m not gonna tell why. Not now. Nantilah. On another more significant 14th. Ok, ok my 14th Jan list.

Happy moment of the day – Lunching with my girls : Zeze & Nana. I went to their office; my old office. Met few familiar faces, said hi & bye. Went makan, lepak & have a good laugh with them. About 1-hr. That’s good enough just to keep me sane. Hey, I spent my whole Sunday alone at home. Not speaking to anyone. Only me & my new BFF – Mr Astro & rakan2nya. Eh, tak. Spoke to Maymay in the morning. But I was too mamai, it was barely a conversation. She called to ask me to join her b-ball-ing, which I would go if I’ve gone jogging that morning like I used to do few weeks back. Shit. Been skipping jogging lately. Blame it on my work. The first week of Jan I was working. Last Sat I was in Malacca with the girls. I could’ve been able to jog around A-Famosa if I didn’t….

i) Had too much of Margarita & Vodka the night before.

ii) Dance like all the clubs in the world will be closed.

iii) Chilled in the pool till 5am.

iv) Slept around 6am, kot. Off-track dah, ok back to the list.

What I really really really want. Hmm… Right now is, eh, are-lah :-

2(a) Be happy. Lame. I know. But that’s the honest truth. And I’m working on it. Really.

2(b) I want to go vacation. Chill. Anywhere. I’m going JB this weekend. Work purposes yes but I hope I’ll get to chill jugak. Then I’m going Brunei with Nana the next weekend. That’s for pleasure alrite. I think I’m gonna like Brunei. I want to unwind. Brunei yang dilaporkan tiada unsur-unsur pengclubbingan & booze (legally… ;p), should be a good recharged spot. And me & the girls are planning an island trip. Could be Lang Tengah again (100x pun tak kisah) or Perhentian. Which reminds me, I wanna take up scuba license. This reminds me that I have to learn to swim. Which means, I have to get over my fear!! Shit. Forget about that first. It’s happy thoughts time.

2(c) Wanna be a good daughter, sister, cousin, niece, if not better. Esp the daughter and sister part. I’m working hard. Really.

2(d) I want a laptop.

2(e) I want a new phone.

2(f) Cukuplah for a day list. See if it changes tomorrow.

I went to bed with so many things in my mind. Oh ye, lately I’m having difficulty to sleep. Pikir banyak sangat kot. So many unsolved issues. Then, will terjaga in the middle of the night only to find it even harder to go back to sleep again. Few times pulak tu. Then, have to go to work. Bila weekend, cant sleep after 9am. Mata dah terbuntang. Bangang. Better work on this No.3.

It’s late. I better chow now. Apa pulak happy thoughts untuk hari ni. Whatdhell. Heh. Later, babe!